10 5 / 2010
Cannot believe that I’m nearly finished first year of uni already. It’s went to fast.
All kinda crazy now though. Getting every ready for my exams and trying to do this essay, which right now is obviously not happening. :)
Its been a great first year. Ive made some of the most amazing friends, who I honestly think I’ll be friends with for life. Had the most amazing times, just going out and being crazy with my friends. Times where we just go out and dance for hours without stopping.
Also had the best time on my course. Love the fact tht I’m getting to do what I love everyday and am training to do the job I’ve wanted to do my whole life. Can’t wait till my teaching placement next year. Should be good.
In a way I’m glad I’m finished first year cause it means I can move out of halls. Halls has been one of the best and worst experiences of my life. Best because of the amazing people I’ve been living with and just some of the fun banters we’ve had. Worst because some people are incapable of being tidy and keeping a kitchen clean.
Overall though, I’ve absolutly loved every second of first year and can’t wait for next year when me and my closest friends at uni have our own flat and just have good times
14 4 / 2010
Why does when everything seems to be going perfectly does something have to happen to bring you down?
Last week my life seemed great, things couldn’t get much better. Uni was great, I was having the most amazing times with my friends and had the best, best friend in the world who I was completely in love with and we had the best times ever and were like a couple, just never official.
That was until I get a call from my best friend saying that he was going out with one of my friends. To it hurt is the biggest understatement ever. I could literally feel my heart breaking in two and can feel the pain every single minute of the day. I feel like I’ve got hole where my hearts been ripped out and that its never going to heal. I’ve cried so many tears, I thought I would never stop. Spent days not being able to see because of tears. As they’re both my friends, I need to see them together all the time and that just restarts the whole process of me getting over him. Except I don’t think I ever want to get over him.
I know that God has an amazing plan for me and has the perfect guy in mind for me. But that fact doesn’t help when I feel like I’ve already found him. I’m going to hand everything over to God now and pray that He gives me peace of mind and surrounds me with His rest. I feel I need to pour everything I’m feeling into God and spend my time getting back to Him and fall back in love with him (L)